GRRR PEOPLE CARE ENOUGH TO WRITE EXTENSIVE BLOGS AND MAKE EXTENSIVE VIDEO'S ABOUT HOW MUCH THEY HATE ME, GIVING ME AT LEAST 30 MIN. OF THIER LIFE!!! [congrat's you just promoted me idiot]
My luck sucks, I fell in shower for the 6th time in my life...so now I have a concussion -_- Whatever on a different note my dog is a pervert and licks my underwear when I leave them on the floor, I keep making it clear she isn't allowed to.., but she keeps doing it. She also tries to go for my crotch and it's really disturbing. How do I make her stop?
Oh and I just looked at all the stuff I put under my youtube video's SOOO MUCH!!! LOL.
Draculoh Channels:
http://youtube.com/draculoh [Comedy Sketches and more]
http://youtube.com/draculohrants [Vlogging and Discussion]
http://youtube.com/draculohvault [Bloopers and Extra's]
A very large amount of people are saying that he should have taken me to a doctor, whether I want to go to one or not.
Am I not a human anymore because I have lost parts of my memory? Do I not have rights to make my own decisions?
All this jabber about me being wrong is merely opinion.
I know I do not have a tumour because I have had this problem before, it's my body's way of surviving the stress of life.
Doctor's have misdiagnosed me my whole life just to make money, I don't trust the health field in Canada, I sure don't trust it in America.
If I do have a tumour, then so be it....I have longer to live now then after they cut on my brain.
If I am meant to remember the last 3 year's of my life I will. My body will heal itself, If it does not then that's how it is.. I'm not scared of it.
If I'm going to die, then at least I die a happy, free and loved human being.
I'm an so happy I am with Greg because I know that when I get old, and my memory completely goes he won't just put me in a home and expect people who don't know anything about me except for my health card number to take care of me, He love's me and has proved to me he is willing to take care of me, as I will him.
And to the arrogant youtube prick who made a video about this, I'm so glad I'm with someone who is nothing like you, Back the fuck off.
You know nothing about me, and YOU sir are the one who is a poor excuse for a human being.
Please everyone calm down, keep your negativity to yourself, I have made my decision and I stand by it.
Unfortunately every memory coming back to me is painful, things from before being with Greg and and fights with him. I'm a happy person and it usually takes a lot to put me into a deep depression...but I'm slowly slipping into one, I don't want tot loose myself to it. Why is it I have to remember such heartbreaking and mind shattering things? Why should it all bother me? Why am I a slave to my feelings? Is there ever a point where the bad memories just ravage and drown the good one's? It's all just needless pain at this point and I really want it to stop. If it wasn't for Greg this whole experience would be so much worse...Thank you Greg <3 I love you. Thank you friend's and family for doing what you have always done for me, and be there. And Thank you to all of my fan's for being amazing.
Last night I lost 3 years of my memory.
I woke up to a strange man who I now know as Greg thinking I was being hurt, or violated.
I did not know where I was, or who he was.
The last thing I remember is talking to my ex boyfriend when I was 15 [2008]
Before Greg showed me proof that I had been with him for this long, and he wasn't here to hurt me..
I had tried to defend myself against him by picking up a heavy object and threatening to hit him with it.
That's when he showed me my passport, a Skype call with Damon who I have known for years and the date [proof of age] ,along with the tattoo on my neck [undeniable proof of my age, and love for him]
Later that night I felt close to him, like I had feelings for him, I feel love for him, that's something that I remember.
I have realised he is going to help me, and he love's me...he's a very good man.
Please do not be aggressive towards him, he did the right thing...I don't want a doctor, I just want to be around him, and slowly remember my life.
I FEEL!!!!!!!Like sometimes I'm a ticking time bomb. Waiting for someone to throw something at me that rattles me. Then I just blow up and everyone around me gets hurt. UGHH!, I need counselling...too many problems, too many things to deal with, not enough mind power to handle it all. Am I nuts? Have I lost it finally? Headache's, Stomach Pains, Heart Problems. Justttt a waitiiiinnn.
On another note, how's your day? I'll be recording a main channel video today with Greg, and I think I might be going for coffee with his mom. Other than that I'm just bored....ugh I need a life outside of my computer LOL. Complain complain complain complain that's me :]
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Do you ever wonder why one human can affect another so heavily when love is involved?
Why every little word matters, the nice one's make you feel like your flying and the mean one's make you feel like your flesh is being ripped away from your bone's.
It's confusing and angering to know when in love we no longer have control over our feelings and emotions.
Is there ever a point where you're too in love? Too invested to have any control over yourself anymore?
It's even worse when you give up everything you own, everything you worked for, everyone you knew, every family member just to be with that person...and they still shut you out, they still leave you alone.
Upon realising that today was the first day I had EVER cleaned a toilet the loserishness flowed out of me and I became aggressively cleaning the house.
OMG!! No but really I have never cleaned a toilet before? WTF!!!
I suck at being clean but jeeze I've always had someone to clean the house and then it suddenly stopped and I realised I needed to clean it myself.
O.....M.....G! I'm pathetic. I'm a hypocrite
