Thursday, February 16, 2012

His forgiveness.

I posted my confession to something I am not proud of and I felt you should all know the response I got.
I'm sorry my once love. I'm sorry. It hurts, but I understand your hatred. I expected nothing less then for you to speak your mind. I appreciate your honesty towards all this. I do love you, and I will forever remember how it used to be.


From: Greg -

I loved you more than anyone I had every known. You gave me the most beautiful moments in my life... you were supposed to be my soulmate... we were supposed to be married... I invested so much into you and what did you do?

You destroyed the best & most beautiful thing I ever had with lies & cheating.

You will NEVER, EVER be forgiven.

I HATE you for what you did. You betrayed me, you betrayed love, and for that I never want to see/hear from you again. You make me sick.

Don't ever say you love me, you are cheating scum, and you don't deserve to speak the word.

We could of had everything if you just told the truth, but now all you are is my biggest, most painful mistake.

Do not write back, do not speak of me, I want nothing to do with you.

I will do all I can to forget you, you owe it to me to allow me to erase your ugly cheating/lying stain from my memory..




My Reply: - 
I promise I will never speak to you again from this day forward. 
I only want you to know that I am truly sorry, I only did what you once did, I found inspiration, something that brought light to my life and I followed it.
You were a dark and sick cancer that ate away at who I was regardless of how much I loved you, or how much you loved me. 
We were destined to fail after the first time you left me so brutally.
I am deeply sorry for the mistake I have made, and because of it I will always be alone.
Please only ever remember the good moments.... we were soulmates, that doesn't mean its meant to work the way we planned.
Be well, please....please be well. Take care of yourself for you are beautiful. Remember who you are and don't change for anyone unless it's for the better.
I love you


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    1. That's what I said too. But, only in response to my laugh induced bellyache after reading this blog post. As in "Wow, my stomach hurts from laughing so hard."

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    2. This isn't funny... Is heartbreaking and depressing and makes me want to cry.

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  2. I've been through this hell before... 4 year relationship... nothing but back and forth back and forth, lying, cheating, hurt, loss.
    I moved away.. made different friends. Forgot my ex completely.

    Now.. 2 years after that whole mess. I found my true love.
    I hope the best for you. and greg. Everyone deserves to be happy in life.

    Love Michelle.

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  3. WOW I like said you are the bigger person you said your good byes now prove you can continue to be the bigger person . His reply was way too harsh, considering he was MARRIED when you 2 got together.. You deserve better , hes older yet you seem more grown than him ..

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    1. I agree. He cheated on his ex-wife, yet he always ignores his shortcomings and places the blame on the female. (S,A, you..) HE cheated yet you aren't worthy to talk of love..how disgusting. BTW his case has no merrit..he gave you money as a gift. There was no contract so the fact that he is trying to go to "judge judy" is just his butt hurt way of getting revenge on you for moving on and trying to be happy. I don't agree with what either of you have done,and watching your downward spiral with G was painful. He is like a gangrenous limb that has to be cut off, and the wound cauterized before you can move on with your life. The more you dwell on what was, all the good you remember once the relationship is over, the more pain you will continue to be in. Fill your time with people that are good for you and start healing, let his own disease fester his soul, not yours. Wishing the best for your future.

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  4. For some time now, people watch you as you rise to fame and fall again because some dumb fuck can not make up his insignificant mind on if he should be with you or not. Emotionally cheating? That is a daily occurrance for everyone. Lots of times there is someone you often think about rather than your partner. There is always that one person you want to run to for a shoulder to cry on because your boyfriend/fiance/husband (visa versa) just can't do 'the trick' for you. Take everything that has happened, move on. You are better than him. Shiloh, repeat this every day. "I am smart, I am beautiful, and I am important." because you are. You are an inspiration to all of us who think of you as someone special; someone who can stand up to this world and all of it's critics, but never fall. Rise up again, you are a butterfly.

    ShesJustACatastrophe

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  5. I went through this, almost this exact relationship, I moved back down to Arizona from Alaska to be with a guy I thought was my soulmate (we went out on and off from 13-16, only he wasn't the same guy I had fallen in love with...I ended up leaving and making up an excuse just to do so and not have him following along behind me. Shiloh you seriously deserve better than greg, from what I've seen from your posts on FB Randall has done nothin but love you from the start, give yourself a chance and try to do better than you did with Greg.

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  6. Shiloh, you're a selfish, horrible, lying, cheating whore. You don't/didn't deserve Randall, let alone Greg. I've ALWAYS hated you. You've changed Greg for the worse. He was so much happier and carefree before he dated you. What is he at the moment? A shell. A human shell because you have destroyed everything inside him. He will grow stronger and he will move on to someone who DESERVES him, but how long will that take? God knows.
    You've even turned his FANS against him and made them believe he was doing it for publicity?
    I quote from Greg's statement: "You make me sick."

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    1. that's so mean.............

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    2. Did you forget that it was GREG who CHEATED on his WIFE to be with Shiloh.... WOW you people act like hes the reincarnate of Charles Manson the way you follow him and refuse to see his faults in this. HE CHEATED ON HIS WIFE TO BE WITH SHILOH !!!! Wake Up !!!

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    3. wow you really are a bitch aren't you? Shiloh didn't destroy greg, he let his "fame" go to his head, which destroyed him, not Shiloh if anything Greg destroyed her, just because Greg says something about her, doesn't make it the truth, if you look at the way she acts in some of her videos, you can SEE the abuse she endured because of him...I don't blame her for EMOTIONALLY cheating on him, which if you ask me, isn't really cheating...it's getting emotional support from someone else, not having sex with them

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    4. @storiesofcaitlynn, sounds like issues between Shiloh and Greg run deep for you, yet you have to look at the big picture without being so emotional...People move on from one another and Karma sure is a bitch...How do you think Greg's ex feels about the whole Shiloh/Greg ordeal? Has she moved on? probably, because as we all know there's plenty more fish in the sea, but Karma caught up with Greg... and Shiloh as well but sounds like she's healing and not becoming an "EMPTY SHELL". Those who choose to wallow in their own self righteousness end up shells of human beings until they realize how to control themselves from inflicting pain and sorrow on people they "LOVE".He has to learn to relax on the opposite sex and learn how to treat the woman he "LOVES" with patience, understanding and RESPECT...thats it I'm done rambling at cha...

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    5. It wasn't Shiloh's fault... What would you do if you were in her shoes? She made a mistake, and we all make mistakes, I'm pretty fucking sure that you have made mistakes as well.
      Greg is a selfish, judgemental prick. All he wants is fame and money, he forces his opinion on people and turns them into robots. He feeds off 17 teenage girls and makes there lives a living hell.

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  7. @storiesofcaitlynn, um, hi, this is a former fan.
    Shiloh had nothing to do with me hating Greg. He achieved that all on his own. Poor brainwashed fans like you are sad people. Greg fucked Shiloh up, not the other way around. He shouldn't have cheated on Skye in the first place.

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  8. Greg emotionally cheated with you on Skye. Karma is a bitch ain't it?

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    1. Actually, Greg slept with Shiloh before Greg and Skye were divorced.

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  9. Shiloh, as usual, remains the bigger person in this whole mess.

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  10. Wow, now he know exactly how Skye felt. He did this to himself. You deserve better to be happy. The lies weren't good, but the way you've tried to handle the end was a lot more mature than him.

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  11. I can tell she was angry from his response, but good job not succumbing to it. Good luck with your new life, Shiloh.

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  12. Many mistakes happen in our lives be it small or big, however, the thing that must be done, is to let it flow down the river. I always thought of the soul as water, just let all the memories and all the hurtful things that has been done, down the river. "Time Heals" is somewhat true, however, both side must be strong in order to move on.

    May The Long Time Sunshine Upon You, All Love Surround You, And The Pure Light Within You Guide Your Way On. Sat Nam to both Onision & Draculoh.

    Learn from your mistakes, heal with Guru Ram Das Chant and move forward with Ra Ma Da Sa.

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  13. i dont think anyone knows enough about their relationship to say anything, because we don't know their lives through videos, either one of them can be lying or either one of them could be right. All we could do is give advice but not judge because we werent there to see what REALLY happened. and you know what, greg has provided enough evidence to prove he hasnt lied, yet shiloh didnt. thats the only thing we have, evidence and even with that we cant judge them. fuck people man you guys are so freaking annoying with your oh shiloh cheated oh greg cheated fuck man you guys dont know shit !

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  14. "I want nothing to do with you." saying this but at the same time trying to expose your life in judge Judy is just plain stupid.
    He's not better than you, he's a cheater and a liar, yes maybe you have cheated emotionally but I can't honestly blame you, he's so judgmental and self-righteous, that's probably one of the reasons you are blaming yourself, he really made you believe you aren't worthy when in fact is a lot worse than you.

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  15. Shiloh, please read this comment. Like seriously, read it. :3 the first line is a little harsh, but I think you'll wanna read it ^w^

    You know, you've had a history of lying. But from some of the videos I've seen and the things I've heard, I've come to this conclusion: Greg's a lot like my mom's boyfriend. What does this have to do anything with? He does the same exact things Greg does. He tries to blame everything on you. He tries to make it seem like you're the bad person, and like he's the victim. He tries to turn everyone against you by telling everyone he knows that you're a liar and a cheater and a bitch and dumb and just an all around terrible person. And then at the same time, he acts like he loves you, even though he threatens to kick you out all because of a disagreement. If you try to prove him wrong, he'll point out one of your flaws and blow it way out of proportion. He doesn't like to talk about anything remotely relationship-esque if it doesn't involve his problems. He's a master-manipulator and is specialized at ruining your life if you do him wrong; but if he does you wrong it's no big deal. I've had to deal with his remarks as well. I can't tell you how many times I've dreamed of doing terrible, evil things to him; I've never truly hated ANYONE as much as I've hated him. He deserves SO much pain for being the heartless player that he's been. My mom of course, doesn't understand, because she's still in love with the fat bastard. >.>

    Like I said, I don't believe everything that you say. But if Greg is just like the description I gave, then you did the right thing by leaving him. People like that aren't good for you; they're toxic. They change you. I do believe that Greg wasn't good to you, because what you've said falls in line with what his exes have said. I understand why it was hard for you to leave him and why you kept getting back with him despite everything. While faking a disease wasn't smart, (come on, sepsis is deadly... But in case you were telling the truth, then I take back what I said about you faking the disease :p) you felt like that was the only way you could leave him, even though you considered the consequences. (I might be wrong about this, too; I haven't kept up with the drama lol) I totally get what you're going through. You might never be yourself again, and it'll take a while to heal. But you'll get there, eventually. <3 take care~

    (oh, and on the off-chance that you want to respond and clear things up privately if I was in fact wrong, my email is nevershoutchels@gmail.com ^w^ if you don't want to I totally understand, but if you do everything'll be civil and whatnot ^w^ everything will be completely confidential as well. I understand Greg'sbehavior all too well because, like I said, I'm currently having to deal with a 50-year-old-man-with-the-maturity-of-a-teenager version of him -.-)

    But remember, you are most certainly the victim here <3

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    1. Manipulative personalities are like that, and they can and will change you. I know of one who has a knack of making himself look like the perfect role model of a guy, even though reality is that he's just plain mean. The impression I've got from this whole drama is that Greg either really is or is becoming one of these types of people as well, however I am on the outside looking in, so I would not know for certain. These guys are good at only having the women they hurt know for certain what they're really like.

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  16. i know i probably don't know what im talking about, but i think both of you messed up. Shiloh, you weren't being honest and Greg is taking this way to harshly. yet i understand where he is coming from. im on both sides. to me there is no sides! they both messed up! and there should be forgiveness soon. After this incident i am still a huge fan of both, i know im ranting but you need to understand that there doesn't need to be sides, unless that's how you feel it should be.

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  17. Shiloh.
    I hope you are well and I wish you luck on your new family, my heart goes out to you and your family,
    Just hear me out here, Greg wasn't right for you, my opinion on this man is that he is a judgemental idiot who doesn't even know the meaning of love, I mean look at him he called you a "cheating scum" just for making one mistake. Don't be down, your beautiful and you deserve to be happy. My hand reaches out for you if you ever need it, I hope you are safe and sound with your new husband. I will support you no matter what and I will miss you.

    -From Eloise

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  18. A bad beginning makes a bad ending

    Thats all I have to say

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  19. Omg im so glad to hear from you Shiloh... I wish I could meet you and potentially get to know you... I see who you really are and I really miss u.. u will Prolly never see this but I hope you contact me out of curiosity... email me at slikfang@aim.com if you'd like to talk... feel like I've known you forever...forever

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