Monday, July 18, 2011
I'll always love my Zorr.
I am happy to see so many people are trying to help Greg through this.
I truly do love him and I want him to be happy.
This has all been so ugly, and if I could take it all back I would.
I have spent all day remembering the beautiful moments...the time's when nothing was wrong, everything was so very perfect... The first kiss, the first night, the first video, the first dance, the time we kissed in rain, the first night I came back from st. vincent, the time we spent as friends just kissing each other's cheek for a at least an hour before we went to sleep. The time he smooshed a perfectly good klondike bar into his cheek just to see me smile. The time I put flour and makeup all over my face just to see HIM smile. There are so many wonderful things to remember.
Some people may think I'm crazy, he may think I'm crazy. Truth is.. I wanted so badly for things to work I didn't think about how I was acting, or what I was saying.
When love runs deep, so does the pain when the person says they don't love you anymore.
He gave to me the best time of my life, and it's all that keeps me going every day.
We fought, we loved, we yelled, we loved more...and then it just came to a bitter and ugly end.
If I could just go back in time, and step away...and given him his space instead of being so scared of losing him that I clung so tight I suffocated his love for me, then I wouldn't have to cry every night clutching the little stuffed bear and little green guy he made and gave me for valentines day.
I miss everything about who we were, how we loved, and how we fought for each other.
Life is going to throw these things at us to see if we can survive and if it wasn't for him...I would not be alive right now.
He saved my life when I was left with nothing else but pain.
He was my friend when no one else would be.
He loved me when I didn't have the world to offer...just my love.
He is a good man. A good man that I hurt. A good man that deserves nothing but happiness and light.
None of our love was meaningless despite how this all went down.
I cherish every moment I had with him.
I appreciate every single second.
I as an human am not perfect.. and these are the things that open our eyes and make us realize what we had.
Greg is beautiful in so many ways.
I will love him with everything I have forever.
To Greg I am sorry from the very soul of whatever is left of me.
I wish you the best in everything you do, I believe in you, You're still my hero.